So I recently looked at everything when it came to this blog and like everything else I decided to find a way to keep trying new things. I want this to succeed and something happened recently that I want to tell you about. No secret has been made about my health problems, and I have hoped that honesty has been appreciated. It has been part of my attempt to keep this semi-positive, to keep this place somewhat of a bright light in the darkness, but something has happened, actually, a lot has happened.
First, is the disrespect. A lot of people do not see what I am trying to do and some believe I am lazy because what they do not see is a perfect representation. It kinda hurts when people who have known me for so long make jokes about me doing nothing. I put up more videos and do more advertising than many others, and learning from nothing and even working to get one person to look at those videos, and smile than it is doing good work. Building a brand from nothing takes time that my health problems have afforded me, and I try to make sure that time has been used wisely. This disrespect comes back and causes a part of me to grind my teeth in frustration because they are working for someone else and it is only from the four of us working together that we even have what we do.
Second, is the remarks. People who had been my friend have left me with so little as a single hello leaving me to my own mind, and sometimes that is not a place anyone should be. Others who think they are better than me with their words of how they are doing so well getting a laugh at my expense without so much as a response. Bipolar depression is something that plagues me, and anyone who knows it can tell you that sometimes your own mind can be your worst enemy. After all the positive there can be so much negative that it can swallow you at any moment, and you have to expend energy that may seem so little that you may drown or pass out from exhaustion depending on the day. I know there are good people out there who care about me, but in the depression, I made something, a part of me where all the negative sits. All of my anger at everything sits here just simmering with all this.
Third, is the effect. I know I can do better, and I know I can do a lot of things different things and despite all the positivity I like to put on my YouTube channel there is places for such things and a little venom will be here because for all the good there needs to be a little venom in the world for some people to understand the point. Some people are just too stupid to get the points unless they feel a sting with it. It is unfortunate but true.
Which leads to my actions there was two ideas that I wanted to try on Youtube, but couldn’t because I think it will be better here. One is simply called Opinion Time where some of the news of the week is gonna be recapped as well as my opinion of it.
Devil’s Advocate is going to be something where I show I can do better than people who have positions in businesses after big mistakes by their company. The point of this is not to show how good I am, but how good a lot of the people are that many businesses have overlooked for their positions. People have the skills but others seem to forget that so maybe a little roasting over the flames will get them to understand.
Hope you enjoy.